Atheist Bartender Dies Twice: From a Dark Void to the Council of Men

Medical Details

First death: Choking on fluids after excessive drinking. Second death: Sudden cardiac event/heart attack due to family history and stress.

The Experience

Carrie Cohan’s journey into the unseen began not with a tunnel of light, but with a descent into darkness. In 1992, Carrie was living a life defined by the fast-paced, often destructive environment of the nightclub scene. A self-proclaimed atheist at the time, she used her lack of faith as a shield against the guilt of her past—specifically, an abortion she had years prior that she couldn't forgive herself for. She didn't want to believe in a higher power because belief implied accountability, and Carrie wasn't ready to face a judge.

That changed one night when Carrie, having consumed too much alcohol, choked on her own fluids. Unable to move or breathe, she felt her consciousness slip out through the top of her head. Expecting either nothingness or peace, she was horrified to find herself in a dark, oppressive space. Shadows moved beneath the floorboards, and small, demonic creatures began to emerge. Suddenly, she was face-to-face with an entity she recognized instinctively as the devil. He didn't speak with a voice but tried to pull her into a hypnotic trance, coaxing her spirit to follow him.

In a moment of pure desperation, Carrie’s atheism vanished. She realized that if something this evil existed, its opposite—something purely good—must also exist. For the first time, she called out. 'God and Jesus, you have to be by my side now!' she commanded. Instantly, a radiant light filled the room. God appeared to her right and Jesus to her left. The demonic entity, unable to withstand their presence, fled through the window along with its minions.

During this first encounter, the Creator spoke to her in a gentle, loving voice. When Carrie asked why the darkness had come for her, the answer was sobering: she had given up on faith and harbored such self-hatred that her soul was 'for the taking.' Vulnerable and without a spiritual anchor, she had nearly been lost.

Carrie survived that night and took the experience as a wake-up call. She quit drinking, left the nightclub industry, and began a path of self-improvement. A year later, she met the man she believed was her soulmate. But as she prepared to move into a new life with him, the old guilt returned. Her fiancé came from a devout Catholic family, and Carrie felt like an imposter, certain they would reject her if they knew her past. The stress of these thoughts, combined with a genetic predisposition to heart disease, triggered a massive cardiac event.

As a sharp, knife-like pain pierced her chest, Carrie died for the second time. This time, the experience was vastly different. She hovered above her body before a massive brown bird swooped down, gently gripped her spirit, and carried her through the clouds and into a vast, white void. The silence was so profound it made her ears vibrate, but it was accompanied by a love so overwhelming it felt like a physical substance.

She found herself sitting on a chair made of clouds, absorbing the radiant energy around her. There, she was reunited with the Being of Light she knew as God. In this space, names mattered little; she was shown that Spirit goes by many names—Allah, Buddha, Grandfather Spirit—but the most important act is the daily connection to that energy. She was taught about the 'Spirit Song,' a universal vibration of sound and music that binds all of creation together in love.

Jesus also appeared, and they spoke about 'thought pollution.' He explained that humanity’s negative thoughts don't just affect the individual; they ripple out into other dimensions and galaxies. Carrie was told that her mission, and the mission of all humanity, is to 'clean up our stinking thinking' and focus on joy, abundance, and unconditional love. To her amazement, Carrie later saw a painting titled 'Prince of Peace' by Akiane Kramarik and burst into tears—it was the exact face of the man she had spoken to in the white void.

The climax of her journey occurred at a semi-circle table where she stood before the 'Council of Men'—twelve elders presided over by God. When Carrie, with her modern sensibilities, wondered where the women were, the council chuckled, hearing her thoughts instantly. They explained that while feminine energy surrounded her everywhere, they had manifested in male forms specifically to help her heal the wounds she had received from men on Earth and to find balance.

The elders delivered a powerful message: they loved her unconditionally and needed her to start loving herself with that same intensity. They expressed relief that she had never followed through on suicidal thoughts during her darkest times, explaining that a soul’s self-inflicted departure creates a 'fracture in the matrix' of existence.

Carrie returned to her body not just with a healed heart, but with a transformed soul. She no longer feared judgment because she had seen the face of the Judge—and He was made of nothing but love. Her life became a testament to the power of thought and the necessity of self-forgiveness.

How It Changed Their Life

Carrie completely turned her life around, quitting the nightclub scene and drinking. She moved from atheism to a deep spiritual connection, focusing on the power of positive thoughts and self-forgiveness.